Life as a college student: Entry 1

Ok, so for those who don't know, on top of my involvement in Children's Ministry at church, and my job, and classes, I also am very involved in a ministry on campus at my school. I sing on the worship team, and am generally an extra pair of hands when they need me. And if you are sitting around wondering, "Hmm, What should I pray about?" I have the answer.
Pray for us. As you probably know, college can be a very difficult time. So far, I can see how it could be "the best time of my life", but it is definitely a very difficult time also. Most of the leaders in my group not only are full time students, but honor students. Many of us work, some more than part time. All of us are involved in our churches, and all of us have family obligations, whether or not we live at home. On top of this we are bombarded daily with messages that directly contradict the Word of God, and sometimes required to regurgitate such lies in order to pass our classes. We are faced with a very hard balance: How do you love the students on campus and show them that you are not judging them, and at the same time live a life pleasing to God?
And while all this is going on, we are faced with one big question that kind of looms over our heads all day, every day: What do I do next? We want to go and do and be something greater, and we just don't know where it starts.
Thankfully, God has blessed me and my friends with each other, and His presence among us on an almost daily basis. I am so thankful, that I am overflowing. This group has impacted my life in a way no others have. They have been a constant encouragement and a spout from which God has poured His love on me.
And right now, we are facing struggles. Like the Thessalonians, we have had a great season of Joy and Growth, but it seems to be time now for pain and testing. Our group leader is struggling with some things, and setting a great example to us, but still is a very broken servant of God. Our worship leader is going through some tough stuff and is struggling with insecurity. Many of us seem to have schedules and commitments that overwhelm us. It seemed that this week it was all coming to a head, and I feared we might fall apart. But God is in control.
Today, we surrendered ourselves to God, and He moved among us in a powerful way. I hope He breaks us all just a little bit more.
Today a young man who is pretty new to our group shared on a passage that has meant so much to me: 1 Timothy 4:12.
Generally, when doing in depth studies, I shy away from the common favorites, just in an attempt to learn something new, but this verse has shown up everywhere, by God's grace, and He has used it to break me and build me up again, and again, and again. So I praise God that He used it again today to touch so many of my beloved friends(and me as well).
"Do not let any one look down on you because you are young" I am the youngest member of the Children's Ministry Leadership Team at my church. God has used this passage to teach me that He has called me, and equipped me to do a work in His name. So no matter what my age, I need to follow through and obey Him. This is not easy when you know that everyone you work with is older (and seemingly more experienced). But do not be fooled by thinking that this means that you will not receive godly rebuke. Certainly, there are things for which people rightly "look down on you", but youth is not one of them.
"but set an example for believers" See, this is the hard part. As a leader, and a woman called to ministry, it is my duty to set an example. Of what? Of Christ. I bare His name, and now, as I often tell my dear Serene, I must live up to the name I have been given. How?
"in speech" The book of James gives us enough on speech to last forever, and I recently went through a study with the women at our church on this. This is tough stuff. I have recently been called out on my grumbling. It is a continuous battle.
"in life" Well, can you be more general? In life? I'm sure Timothy thought, 'Really Paul, could you help a brother out here?' But think about this, Paul reminds us that "I have been crucified with Christ, and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." (Gal 2:20-21 NIV) To set an example in life is to be completely dependent on God spiritually, and completely aware of your physical dependence on Him. We are all, literally, desperate for God. We need Him to ordain every beat of our hearts.
"in love" The Bible says over and over that love is so incredibly important. In fact Paul says nothing else matters without it. Yet, I see this struggle to love in myself and others. It is so hard for our flesh. Which is why we must, MUST live by the power of God. Because "This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins." (1 John 4:10 NIV) So now, we can be called the sons and daughters of God. Why? To love. Wow.
"in faith" This one cut me to the quick today. God has kind of worked on my life in the order of this verse since He called me to ministry. Se often revisit the areas I have already learn to polish me up, but we are moving on. Today, He reminded me that I have been learning about faith. I have tested God, and asked Him to prove Himself. I thought I now knew better and could trust Him completely, today, He revealed my heart to me, and it hurt to learn how I have doubted my Lord. The One who provided so much so recently. I cannot let go and trust Him. But that is what He calls us to do, especially leaders, but all of us. In Matthew 17:20, we learn the power of faith, and God has given it freely, so we need only to use it.
"and in purity." Of this I am certain, complete and utter purity is impossible for any sinner, and we are all sinners. In fact, I would love to challenge Paul for the title of chief sometimes. However, I work with God for this purity because "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." And He would not call me to something He didn't wish me to accomplish. And so, I know He who began this work in me will complete it.
This is the life I have been called to live, and so I am living it to the best of my ability. As are my friends. We live among and corrupt and depraved generation, in which we hope to shine like stars. So pray with us and for us.

I'm back, for real

I was only gone for a week, but it took me a month to recover. How does that happen? I was certain I had spoken to everyone I knew about my trip already, and then there was a church picnic. Full of people with questions. Especially the hardest question I've ever been called upon to answer: How was your trip? Well, I answered to the best of my ability, but the tolerant, slightly confused espressions showed me that my dear friends couldn't possibly relate to my week away from myself. So I sighed and encouraged any desire to go. Yes, please go.
I am excited for several reasons this week. First off, my school is out for Spring Break! Yay. No class, much needed sleep, and some homework catchup. Yesssss.
Also, today is St. Patrick's day, fun and green in a mostly Irish family. (And no I will not be drinking green beer. ugh. Another question I hate to answer, but for a different reason.)
I am also excited to say that I have officially applied for Calvary Chapel Bible college, and am now waiting on a few secondary items that I must send in. Then, of course, I will wait for a response. So, its becoming real. And really quite scary. I need to trust God in this one. I know He can do it, but I also need to believe He will. So pray with me on this one.
The other reason I am excited has little to do with me. Our youth is doing the 30-Hour Famine. Which is an awesome program that has a two-fold prupose. It not only raises money for World Vision, but it teaches jr. high and high school students what hunger is. It's awesome. And I have decided to support a few of the kids I know who are going hungry for a day and 6 hrs. So I am excited to see what God has for them.
I am now going to end this blog with a request. I ask that you would pray for Erica and David as they are hoping to lead a trip to Ethiopia next year. I know of several people who are already interested, and so my prayer for the year (and I hope yours as well) is that God would provide in all ways for this to take place. Financially, physically, emotionally and spiritually, that He would prepare each person He calls to this trip.